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clara
geraldine
gloria
grace
hongxi
huitong
lauren
sherli
xueli
yanyin
yeeling
yinghan
yunteng
Sunday, February 28, 2010, 5:00 PM
emotional baggage
the emotional weight is just too heavy at times. what happens to relations that lasted for so long? it ends up with nothing when it seems promising. perhaps it had been the envy of many people. but the higher the expectations, the harder you fall & the more you're hurt. then people start streaming in, comforting you like they've always been the ones there. if only that was able to work out for the persons involved. it ain't as easy as talking. try putting yourself in others' shoes, it's not as simple as that. not saying that comforting others is discouraged though. the time spent together may just be nothing to some people. but please, there are people who treasure relationships a lot, i believe most people do actually. comments might be unintentional, but i believe that it did not just spill out without thinking. so thinking back, it may well be intentional, offensive, crude comments.holding back for too long may not be a good way to keep things the way it is, although i'll prefer doing that. because intentions can be misunderstood. things can be twisted into a whole new story after that. only when you say things out, you can defend yourselves. but how often do we have an 'open table talk' just to make things clear? never.
had a panic attack suddenly yesterday because of university admissions. results will be out really soon. i've narrowed down my options, but that's only possible if results are good enough. lol. other than that, i have no idea where i'll be going. boo. it's annoying man. & i've not been working regularly to earn enough to shop till i drop. (which i thought i will after getting a job) lol. cos here i am craving for online shopping again! but i've got to exercise self restraint. i'll just drool over the com. haha.
videos, music & books have been my greatest comfort these days. i can't believe i actually am reading novels now. hahaha. but they're good enough to keep me from thinking about unhappy stuffs.
& tomorrow is gonna be a good day! cos it's ktv with the girls (: time to enjoy & have great fun.