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geraldine
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hongxi
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lauren
sherli
xueli
yanyin
yeeling
yinghan
yunteng
Saturday, August 15, 2009, 11:39 PM
believing in things tht ive faith in
friends, bear with me. it's tht peak period agn. terrible feeling, horrible moodswings. it's as if i hadnt had enough of these. such heavy load weighing on my shoulders. if only i could be freed of these responsibilities, be like a normal 18yearold. not tht im complaining here, just feeling quite emotional right now. i've been having sudden axiety attacks very often recently, panic attacks too. i have alot of worries. things tht are hard to explain & more difficult to say. yah i know everyone has their obligations. i know thr are alot of people out thr who're worse off. i know everything about this. but when things all come together at one shot, it's unbearable. sometimes i just wake up to find pillows wet when i have no recollection of having a nightmare before tht. nights are the worse please. hoping to come back stronger even though im bogged down by such stuffs. i hate disappointing them. i'll be braver & overcome these.
financial crisis now. every single cent is hard earned money. i abhor the fact tht thr exists income disparity. & it's widening even. i really understand tht feeling. not tht im like reduced to poverty now, but maybe cents can save people in other parts of the world. i dont even dare to ask for more money than usual pocket money. sometimes i even think of returning some to my parents. seriously i dont know wht's becoming of everything, or rather, me. sound like a pessimist now. but i stress agn, im just feeling emotional at this point in time. i think i've seen & heard enough of experiences regarding life, family. i just hope for things to be fine now.
see things with faith.