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geraldine
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hongxi
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lauren
sherli
xueli
yanyin
yeeling
yinghan
yunteng
Friday, April 24, 2009, 8:39 PM
blown away
communications are getting lesser and it pains me to be reduced to this situation. where has all the laughter that we all shared once gone to? people say that it's only through the shared sufferings that enable people to feel the closeness. i bet we've gone through more than just shared sufferings. what's the whole point about saying that we're being childish & failing to see that the actual problem lies not in us? a simple gesture of care or kindness is now deemed as something that is not genuine & people start becoming wary. cynical remarks, stupid reasonings, self-centered mindset, sarcastic comments. where has all the positive characteristics of yours gone to? the values that you once placed so much emphasis on is now diluted. should we now emulate the values you're having? obviously not. you're just blinded by the faults that you see in others & not thinking about whether it really is their fault, or is it that you've long been out of their world, living alone now in your own fantasy. i don't know what's the cause of the change but true enough, im starting to see the ugly side.i don't know why i seem to be stoning every now & then. i've got lots of things on my mind but i cant seem to find the correct outlet to let them all out. basically it includes mostly academic stuffs which is driving me crazy. i don't know which is the right method for me to study. im being so inconsistent to the extent that i sometimes feel like slapping myself awake. so annoyed by it but im just too complacent to work on it. i tell myself that i'll have to sleep late from now on to do extra stuffs other than homework but i always procrastinate and head to bed promptly at 10. i don't know if it's because im pms-ing which has added on to the frequency of stoning. but still.. alrights, so to conclude this part, i'll just have to say that im facing difficulties with my studies. especially when it comes to night time. the lazy bug has caught up with me. im so dead. i totally need motivation.
enough of unhappy stuffs. happy stuffs now. it's friday! some time off the hectic busy shits in school. from nxt week onwards, our weds will start at 9. but it doesn't make a difference to me cos i'll still have to turn in as early & reach school at the same time. neutral feeling here. so i guess it's a good thing. (:
soccer a div next monday! it'll be a tough match cos we're up against the defending champions. but all the best still! there'll be lots of people supporting i believe.
bbq for A01 next thurs! hopefully it'll be a successful one. (: kind of excited. anticipating!
i need to meet the girls! i miss you babes! :D hope to have a mini gathering soon! & not forgetting steadie! :D
reality check: tests, consultations. it's overwhelming.
judging from these, it seems that unhappiness is more than happiness. crap. i need a break.
nevertheless, ghh is gonna be strong. she'll pace herself and know her limits. stop and rest whenever she needs it. she's working for herself, not the others. :DDD back to the happy mode!